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Name: Ravi
Country: United States
State: Georgia
Metro: Gwinnett
Birthday: 2/5/1989
Gender: Male
Interests: All types of music except reggae or christian, psychology, Art, German, French, CNN hah, cooking sometimes, shopping sometimes, movies, hanging out with friends, and meeting new people.I feel 
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MSN: ravi2007@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  prodoc2007
AIM:  zzravizz
Member Since:
3/25/2003
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| The leaves have changed, the temperatures have dropped. The end of the semester has arrived, the warm blankets have been pulled out. My thanksgiving break was a great experience for me. Prior to the week, I had gotten unfocused. I forgot my priorities, my goals, and why I'm a slave to neurological physiology. I had forgotten the meaning of friendship and being there for people. I even forgot what it feels to crush and love. And i'm not going to admit to re-learning or being reminded of all these things, but my November has been such a blur of emotion. It's kind of like my thanksgiving dinner. There were so many different foods that by the time I got a little bit of everything on my plate all the tastes were mixing together. The break was good for me, because I got to try a little bit of each food separately, or at least think about the taste of each food separately. Whether it was cooked amazingly or if the biscuit was burned, it was different from eating my turkey mixed in mashed potatoes gravy with some cranberry and corn on top.
I'm reminded of the beauty of self-dependence and and bitterness of people. But also the amazing energy and impact that great people can have on lives, and the horrible feeling of being alone. I've learned what it is to jump into a pool of cold water only for it to be warmed up after a short while, yet at the same time getting wrinkley skin from being in the water too long, which can characterize some types of friendships.
As the seasons change, so do peoples' priorities. What people say and what people mean are two different concepts. Contradiction and hypocrisy are evident in the deepest corners. But that doesn't mean that I have to be cynical. That just means that bias is something that I should be aware of and watch out for.
In order to not fall into the statistic of "negative influence guys", being aware of my own bias is something I have to watch out for and check myself. My bias of my distrust for guys, getting close to people, low self esteem and at times my unnecessarily high self esteem because of a shot/drink of "fake it til you make it to the point where I believe it" are all things I need to watch out for in my communication with those close to me.
Finally, my passion. My dear passion that is like a baby that has grown for years and years and has changed forms from time to time will always be with me. But I have to keep it close. It is what will keep me driven in hard times where nothing is going as planned. It will get me back on track when I feel like my life is useless and my actions are looping me back to square one. I've forgotten my passion and the many places it can and will take me.
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| So there's this kid named Walker
and he was kinda a fb stalker.
One day he started creeping,
Found Ravi Batra and was leaping.
Later he added that Indian kid.
And on the internet, Walker hid.
Mckenzie shielded his heart,
but recovering he had to start.
His exboyfriend was an asshole.
Surviving heartbreak was the goal.
Despite the harshness, he's better.
Ravi, one night, was a babysitter.
He tried to mend Walker's smile.
He thinks he did for a while.
But Ravi will continue to try.
Why? Walker is amazing. NO LIE.
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| It is fucking amazing! I'm addicted. I'm listening to it on Repeat! DANCE PARTY! Woo.
Blah, Telephone, Monster, Bad Romance, Dance in the Dark, all sooo good.
Anyways, life is SucKy. Not gonna lie. THanksgiving is usually a great day for me to be THANKFUL for everything and a part of me isn't and it sucks, but then my guilt conscious takes over and realize I do have a lot to be thankful for, but i'm just so emooooo.
I go through cycles these days.
This song [[[Royksopp - Tricky Tricky (post5OUND remix) is kind of trippy and gloomy/happy at the same time]]] and I need to forward. *1 sec*
ok back to Lady Gaga - Alejandro.... lol.
Ok so back to thanksgiving... so ADD. :P
My grievances:
1) I've lost my boy mojo. : (
2) I've lost my determination : (
3) I've lost my passion... : (
4) i'm concerned about the wrong things.
5 ) ale ale alejandro ale ale alejandro
My thanks:
1) Mommy! : )
2) Daddy! :D
3) My bio knowledge
4) My arduous nature
5) My affable personality!
6) my smile
7) i'm not your babe, i'm not your babe, fernando.
don't call my name, don't call my name roberto. alejandro............ ale ale alejandro
8) My ability to bounce back!
9) My good heart
10) My comfortableness with my sexuality
11) My IDENTITY (SES/Religious/Gender/Sex/Orientation/Age/All put together) | | |
| My phone is off right now. It's raining outside. My computer isn't making any noise except typing sounds. I am contemplating turning my lights off.
Oooh bliss. :)
*Takes deep breath and long pause*
Oh shit... Time to study for finals. lol.
PS: OLD NAME GARY is a cutie
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